Reading this chapter made me realize how emotionally
illiterate I can be on the page sometimes, which to me is ironic considering
how emotionally expressive I am in person. But then, it makes me wonder that
something may be up with education where I simply can’t translate it on paper
as well as I can in person, and I think it’s in part that many of the classes
we take, writing especially, have you responding to the readings with what you
think (e.g. “what was the symbolism you noticed?”) rather than how it made you
feel inside. Teachers don’t often teach this expressive route, while others do.
Before I got to college and experienced free-writing along with reflective
writing, I had no clue how to write about how I felt, I just understood how to
summarize and draw analyses from texts as if there was some disconnect in my
own brain. Sometimes, I still don’t feel like I understand how to write that
way, but progressively I feel I’m getting a little bit better at it through
writing posts like this and doing other reflective writings in my other class.
Like for my Public Essay class, we respond to each of the readings in our
journal, and while I’ll sometimes say how portions made me feel, drawing on the
anger or what made me confused or upset, I don’t think I’m getting as deep into
the writing as I could.
So I think Bump is right, we need to incorporate emotional
literacy in what is already being taught, because in a way it is therapeutic
and helpful. It gets us more in tune with our emotions. Education really does
go hand in hand with mental health. I mean, we all have minds, correct? We all
go through stress, anxiety, and depression from time to time. Then we all have
mental health that can deteriorate. As he quotes Redl and Wattenberg, “the
teacher can and must assume some share of responsibility for the emotional as
well as the intellectual development of his students.” (316). This reminded me
of Wendell Berry’s essay “Two Minds” about the sympathetic and the rational
mind. It seems like in education, we tend to place superiority in intellect and
knowledge (the rational mind) over feelings and emotions (the sympathetic
mind). We see our professors as highly-educated, powerful beings – Bump makes
the joke of an automaton – instead of a human being with emotions like the rest
of us. And that’s also why there may be this disconnect. Our professor doesn’t
express how his day has been, so why should I? Would it really be uncomfortable
or detrimental to the learning experience if we saw our professor as a peer
rather than as a superior?
The part that really broke my heart was when he shared the
story of a girl who had written an anonymous note about trying to kill herself,
and once tracing the handwriting to the student, he talked with her through it,
walked her to the counseling center, and kept in contact with her progress.
Talk about showing emotion and showing how much someone can care. I truly
believe that professors sometimes forget that their student’s aren’t just
dealing with the work given in that class (or other classes for that matter),
but go through their own turmoil with relationships, family, friends, stress at
work, or even personal struggles with drugs or alcohol. And on the flipside, we
also forget that our professors are people outside of the school context as
well. They may be parents, have another job, have other commitments, but we
just assign them to the context we see them in most, just like they may with
us. And this is problematic. To bring it back to the rational mind, we see them
in this intellectual context, instead of as people with passions, dislikes,
worries, fears and all the things that make us human.
This piece also reiterated to me the notion that mental
health still is very stigmatized. I was livid when the administrators cancelled
his course because they thought he was blurring the roles of professor with
therapist. There was too much focus on emotion, and he was trying to tell his
students how to think and act (which he wasn’t). As if it isn’t his job to make
sure his students are physically and emotionally okay while taking the course.
The administrators clearly, as Bump points out, feared emotion and all that it
could bring. And they clearly did not realize the extent with which taking a
course like that can benefit you, how therapy isn’t a bad thing but is helpful.
I even wrote in my notes, “did these administrators have sticks up their
asses?” because honestly, why else pull the course, even when he backed up his
argument for teaching it and they had no response. It just reinforces the fight
that still needs to be made in education that we need emotional literacy. We
need people, like them, to realize it’s not a harmful thing, but it’s a human
thing. We all have emotions, and expressing them through writing is a very
therapeutic thing, getting us more in touch with ourselves and how we feel.
If you couldn’t tell, I really enjoyed this chapter. I
really loved the beginning with his own personal experience and I loved the
discussion through the middle. However, I feel like he went on a bit too long
about the process of what his courses taught and the process of his course
being pulled and what he did to try and revive it. I understand he did this to
get deeper into the discussion of emotional literacy being taught in an
educational environment (using his own example), but I wanted more examples of
it being taught elsewhere, a more global discussion I suppose. Either way
though, it was a really interesting chapter that made me feel many emotions to
which I tried to expand and write about here. Like I said earlier though, it’s
still something I’m trying to get better at.
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